Path: ...!eternal-september.org!feeder3.eternal-september.org!news.eternal-september.org!.POSTED!not-for-mail From: "Davey Zimmerman #274" Newsgroups: rec.sport.pro-wrestling Subject: UPCOMING MELTDOWN ALERT! Date: Thu, 11 Apr 2024 00:09:55 -0000 (UTC) Organization: Transparent Suckpoppets Of NotChud Lines: 50 Message-ID: Injection-Date: Thu, 11 Apr 2024 02:09:56 +0200 (CEST) Injection-Info: dont-email.me; posting-host="1d23af27b4be968b7e2387d7581c87f6"; logging-data="1350571"; mail-complaints-to="abuse@eternal-september.org"; posting-account="U2FsdGVkX181cHUjfUiSH+PFeGVmzys2frESBvgY9u4=" User-Agent: Xnews/2009.05.01 Cancel-Lock: sha1:9u9pf60obF+u8gUqDVnkjZEtC1A= Bytes: 3269 I'm not sure who has a lot of pity for a beefaroni-swilling parasite that molests family members but it looks like someone is casting a wide net. Remember I mentioned an upcoming meltdown? Here comes more excuses for loafing! "Beefy: A couple of weeks or maybe a month back I mentioned that I thought I may be going through a relatively "new" experience for me - a period of cyclic depression without any particular precipitating event to pin it on." Gee, could it be porn or having to do a bit of work? How about the ongoing sage of the website nobody gives a fuck about? "Beefy: I think I can confirm that now. The last few weeks have definitely not been me at my best, and I absolutely recognize a lot of dysfunctional behavior patterns in play." So have we, Beefy. We call it "Beefy being Beefy". "Beefy: Some of those patterns I've learned to not only recognize but mitigate or alter. Others, unfortunately, I haven't learned to change even though I can see them - and a bit chunk of that involves the "glue" of depression, how it tends to spark and perpetuate behavior that *creates* problems, thereby giving me "something to be depressed about." It really is almost like being a separate observer in my own body sometimes." Drama Queen Syndrome. Hard to believe a genius would fall victim to that. "Beefy: I suspect that on some level this is my mind's way of resisting the idea that it's a bit broken and sometimes it's just gonna take a dive for no reason at all. Meanwhile, there's a struggle here that I think is a key place where "neurotypical" and even many "neurodivergent" people don't quite "get it." It's not that some of us who struggle with these issues don't see our behavior, don't recognize it as negative, don't want to change it, or don't care. But it's like trying to turn the lights on in a room with no switches. I know it's dark. I want it to be light. I know how light works. I know how bulbs work. I know how switches and electricity work. But I can't find the switch. A *ton* of my energy during the period since I left Michigan has been spent on finding those switches that I hadn't already managed to identify. Somewhere in me is that switch that turns off "gelatinous mass" mode and gets me moving again. I *know* that I have the *capacity* to control this. What I don't have yet is the location of all the switches." This is pure comedy gold. Send drugs to Beefy.